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Do you ever like do something that you absolutely know is the right thing to do but by doing the right thing it will ruin everything?

And it just hurts so bad and you immediately want to take it back but you know you can’t?

And even though you were the one bringing it up and you know deep down this is what you should do it still just sucks everything out of you and you feel so empty that you could just collapse?

And how it seems like everyone else is so capable of just moving on while you are just like clinging on for dear life and hoping that when you wake up tomorrow everything will just be back the way it used to be but you know it never will?

How can you convince someone that moving on doesn’t mean its over? That I never intended on losing you? That just because I want happiness doesn’t mean that it has to be without you? That wishing me “all the best” and telling me you “hope I find what I’m looking for” just sounds like a long goodbye. When isn’t 90% of our relationship a friendship? So why does this change anything? And if this hurts you more than you are saying why won’t you just tell me? Tell me you need me. Tell me you miss me. Tell me you hate me. Tell me you don’t want to see me happy with someone else. Just don’t tell me what you are ‘suppose’ to say. Be selfish. Be raw. At least then I know its real. 

My hair is a 1000 different colors right now. #help #goingblonde #toomuchroot #breakroomselfie #girlswithtattoos #gpoy

My hair is a 1000 different colors right now. #help #goingblonde #toomuchroot #breakroomselfie #girlswithtattoos #gpoy

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MY ANACONDA DON’T WANT NONE UNLESS YOU GOT BUNS HUN
Lilith with a snake (1886), John Collier / Anaconda, Nicki Minaj

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MY ANACONDA DON’T WANT NONE UNLESS YOU GOT BUNS HUN

Lilith with a snake (1886), John Collier / Anaconda, Nicki Minaj

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sunvapor said: What the fucks happening in Ferguson?

thecharliecharmander:

clehmentine:

Alright, i’m gonna sit down and basically explain the situation in this ask so everyone of my followers knows why i’m so pissed.

Michael Brown, a 17 - 18 year old african american boy was unlawfully shot (8-10 times supposedly) by police in St Louis, Missouri on saturday, august 9th, 2014. He was unarmed, and had done nothing to attract suspicion other than the fact that he was black. His body was left in the street for 4 hours. (EDIT: i’ve discovered that the Brown family wishes for any and all photos of Michael lying in the streets to be removed. please respect this and do so)

There are several claims from witnesses (see: Dorian Johnson’s account and video [HIGHLY RECOMMEND READING UP ON HIS ACCOUNT, ITS VERY SPECIFIC] — Brown’s friend who experienced the situation first hand, La’Toya Cash and Phillip Walker— Ferguson residents nearby the incident),  that fall together in generally close claims. However, the only one who’s claim seems out of place is the police officer’s who shot Brown. Who, by the way, is put off on paid administrative leave AND who’s name remained under anonymity for his safety (However, attorney Benjamin Crump is looking for a way to force release his name). He claims that Brown began to wrestle the officer for his gun and tried attacking him after he told Brown and his friend Dorian Johnson (22) to “get the f*ck on the sidewalk”.

According to Johnson, after a minor confrontation on the officer’s part where he grabbed Brown by the neck and then by the shirt, the officer pulled his gun on Brown and shot him at point blank range on the right side of his body. Brown and Johnson were able to get away briefly and started running. However, Brown was shot in the back, supposedly disabling him from getting very far. He turned around with his arms in the air and said “I don’t have a gun, stop shooting!” By this point, Brown and the officer were face to face as the cop shot him several times in the face and chest until he was finally dead. Johnson ran to his apartment and by the sound of his account, seemingly had some sort of panic attack. Later he emerged from his home to see Brown still laying in the streets. People were gathered with their cellphones, screaming at the police.

According to msnbc, the police refuse to interview Johnson at all, despite his amazing courage to come forward. They didn’t wanna hear it. They only listened to the cop’s account of it all and were vague with the media on what they thought happened. They’ve also refused to commit to a timeline in releasing autopsy results and other investigation information.

Numerous rumors are sweeping around such as Brown stealing candy from a QuickTrip, the store he emerged from calling the cops on him, Brown reaching for a gun, Brown attacking the cop first, ect. But these have all been debunked. (I know a lot of these have been debunked, but im having a hard time finding sources. if anyone could help out and link some legit ones id be SO grateful)

The event in and of itself was terrible, but now it has escalated beyond belief. Around 100 or more people, mostly black, went to the police station to protest peacefully. Things quickly turned bad as martial law got involved and authorities were bringing in K9s, tanks, heavy artillery, ect. The heavy police presence only made things worse as riots began to break out and looting and vandalism started. [ x ] [ x ] [ x ]

Now, as of very recently, the media has been banned from Ferguson. There is also a No-Fly zone above Ferguson for the reason of “ TO PROVIDE A SAFE ENVIRONMENT FOR LAW ENFORCEMENT ACTIVITIES ” as said on the Federal Aviation Commission’s website. Cop cars are lined up on the borders to prevent people from entering/leaving. Media outlets are being threatened with arrest. It completely violates our amendments and everything.

It’s becoming increasingly scary and difficult to find out whats going on over there. I’m afraid this is all the information I have, though. If anybody else knows anything about the situation, please feel free to add on or correct any mistakes i’ve made as i’m no expert on writing these things.

And as a personal favor, i’d really appreciate anyone to give this a reblog in order to spread the word. I think it’s a shame that this is going on in our own country yet so few people know about it. Help me make this topic huge and get this as much attention as possible.

Guys it’s really important that you reblog THIS version of this post - the one going around now has a link to a picture of Mike Brown lying dead that his family has asked be taken down out of respect.

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